Umm Yah...

Don't leave me at home on a Monday night with nothing to do and no cable. I end up watching the news and while chatting with people online randomly get the inclination that they are about what I'm watching on the news. Like people are really interested in the news. Geez so yah I've learned there are 42 cases of west nile virus they are going to start spraying again. I found it quite amusing the representative about this whole thing looks like he got beat to all hell. Black eye and band aid on his cheek. I realize that the more I watch the news the more I want to leave America. The news makes me weird. A former power ranger killed some retired people that I think were his parents. Mel Gibson is an alcoholic. Finally a suspicious package was a bomb. Someone got shot 9times out of a video rental place while waiting for his son in the car. All this is bullshit. Did I mention almost no one in London own's a gun? And that one Brit we were hanging out with asked us if we owned guns. He seriously though everyone "packed heat". It's fucked up . Did you know police don't have guns over in London.. no they don't they will just beat the shit out of you with a billy club. Thats right and there is no higway patrols. They have cameras over the roadway. So I hate rain so maybe London is no good. Amsterdam how is there weather? Or Canada they're neutral. Did I mention that Arnold and the prime minister of England are like taking on the government regarding green house emmissions? Fuckin news... I need cable.

Do not...

Let boys take you to the strip club for 4 hours and buy you non-stop drinks. Then somehow get you drunk enough and buy you a lap dance by the cutest daner who is in love with your natural boobs. Who decides to pull your shirt up in the VIP area and take a peek at these lucious natural marvels. I merely remark those boys are nothing but trouble and I'm fucken wasted. She replies dont' worry so am I but your hot. Meanwhile she spends her time chewing on the crotch of my jeans. The boys were jealous they couldn't join the fun. So I leave at 10pm completely sloppy drunk get home attempt to wear a dress to go out call my friend while I'm curled up on my side face in the pillow and say " I can't do this I'm too fuckin drunk I need help". I manage to put on a top jeans and some heels and make my way out the door for the remainder of the evening. Finish my makeup in the car somehow down 32oz of water thinking it will wash away 6-sminoff ices and a large glass of Jager. And you know what it worked. I drank water the rest of the night one or the boys met up with us at the club and I got in trouble for not being in a dress. I tried explaining I was too drunk earlier he didn't beleive me . Well you try putting on a halter dress when your wasted and getting all the straps tied and not having your bra show. Sorry I could not do it. Oh yah when I came home after all this I realized I must have been in a fury to find a shirt because my clothes were EVERYWHERE. God damn boys getting me drunk having a stripper take advantage of me and giving me great memories everytime we hang out. LOVE YOU GUYS!!! He's just one of them but yah picture from back in the day with the betty page bangs.

End of the world??

Its the tenth day in a row of over a hundred degree weather. 56 deaths in CA ... and thats people.. not to mention all the poor lil cows out in the middle of nowhere on huge dirt mounds. Apparently milk prices are going to be going up due to cows dying and low milk production. Did I mention the power crunch? Power went out on Monday for a bit. Apparently SJ has been outta power for 3days. Most people's air conditioning has broken at soem point. Probably because people think if you set the thermostat to 40 it'll cool down faster. Sorry dumbshits that just freezes the system. Any way the SPCA closed down today because the AC was out. Poor lil animals had to be transported to other places. Now I wonder how many people actually know all this shit is going on. So yah like 4 old people were found dead in an Apt. complex with no AC. Now from what I've known from living here I thought every place had to have an AC unit. Oh yah and more mine deaths. WTF people stay outta mines!!! So is it the end of the world? Somewhere in Eastern US they are having huge thunderstorms. Global warming? What is going on? I haven't read the De Vinci code and now I'm wondering if I should just to know when I should start having lots of sex and procreating. I mean I should have until 2008 right? Til I put in some good hard work at UCSB. Oh well my cat is content livign his happy lil furball elderly life in loving hands of me. He does like to sprawl out on the kitchen floor with his butt up against the vent to the fridge I wonder if it helps with the heat? I wonder if I am actually part cat wouldn't this work for me also. Although I don't think being in the position would be explanable to people who may see. I'm indesisive about things lately too. Dammit like should I go to sleep and not be able to sleep like everyday the past week. Am I stressed is this why I can't sleep? Is it lack of sex? Is it I worry too much about what is going on with boy? Should I even care anymore? Should I be upset,angry, dissapointed,or what? I want to be supportive I want to think that somehow me seeing him will maybe make him crack a smile. Oh yes I contacted an old friend about cuddling and that is postponed until he has sex since I specifically pointed out that it would not happen if we cuddled. I called a friend out for drinks and nothing. So I'm here awak contemplating food and a cigarette. Its still 90 degrees outside oh yes did I mentioned the nights haven't gotten below 85. Most summers cool off. I think soemone in the big house is pissed off at Americans. That's it Bush your outta here and we are bringing back the troops. Please dont' commetn on my political views I care not to get into a discussion about them. The way I see it you can argue all you want about it and still get no where. Fuck it I'm having a cigarette and soem crunched up uncooked top ramen and hitting the sack.

Sigh

So got a response from the boy. He apologizes he's been laying low. He went to the doctors got meds but refuses to take them. Ironic but I understand where he's coming from I'm kinda anti-meds also. He's sick of work wants to quit. They gave him a promotion a couple a weeks ago and I just think its too much. For him to be someone that rarely stresses out to be this whacko about shit is really something. I feel bad but there is nothing I can do. Like I said I laid shit on the table for him such as whether or not I should let him be and he still hasn't acknowledged it so I don't think I'm going anywhere. I'm also not sure when I'll get to see him he's looking forward to his "me" time ... as in time to himself which he has yet to have since his promotion so I don't want to push. But he knows I'm here and I care and that's what's important.

Where to start??

Ok I went out Thursday saw an old bartender that I used to flirt with when I was underage. He's sexy still is. Nice conversation. I had a hard time getting in due to my shoes. I was wearing my chucks like I usually do and the bouncer was giving me a hardtime thats when I started bitching at him that it was Thursday and they always let people in with tennis shoes on Thursdays. I got in when the manager walked out. Its nice to know ppl in the bizz. Friday way too hot I had a headache went to bed early. Saturday Pool party massive amounts of alcohol were consumed and even though I'm a swim instructor I realized that when you are drunk in 105+ weather trying to swim it doesn't work out to well. I always wondered how ppl drown but now I know. I could still swim don't get me wrong but not nearly as efficiently as I can when I'm sober. It was pretty fuckin hard. I even got water in my nose and I'm pretty damn good at not having that happen. So that was interesting besides trying to wrestle the inflatable alligator which was nearly impossible to stay a float on. I had some guy take a flying leap into the pool and smacked my ass on the way in. Yah I think I still have a mark. So I got my payback because I bitched about it a lot and was on the verge of tears. He bent over pulled down his shorts and since it was his birthday he got to take a few whacks at him, well intoxicated Liz found a belt a leather one. A nice leather one. Oh yes payback is a bitch especially when your asking for it. I got 3 good whacks in and I'll tell you what that man was on the verge of tears when I was done with him . And yes his wife caught it all on tape. After all the debauchery we decided for some reason that we were going to hit up the clubs after 7hrs of drinking, swimming, and eating in the horrible heat. So I got in the shower got dressed and headed out. I was so tired it wasn't even funny. So I wasn't necessarily all happy go lucky like I usually am. I was drinking water because I figured after a day of drinking random Mikes hard crisp apple drinks and Schminoff Ice that a so co and coke wouldn't sit to well in my tummy and that I would be absolutely fuckin trashed after. So I ran into this boy and I'll tell you it was awfully nice seeing him out and about being happy again. He instantly knew that I wasn't up to my usual self. So after a lil talking about some random shit I cracked a smile. It was nice. I miss seeing him out we used to have a lot of fun together. I think our sarcastic humor meshes quite well. So we left to migrate to another club where I spent most of my time sitting away from the rest of the people it was so hot and I think everybody was drunk because for some reason when you were trying to walk through the dancefloor nobody would move, and me being sober didn't like that too much. So we left I was happy came home slept well wished I had a boy with a nice fuzzy belly and a goatee to cuddle up with. I know I know I'm weird but I like sleeping on tummies and scratching my nose on goatees. Maybe I'm part cat? Hmm So here I am on Sunday afternoon I need to go help my friend clean the mess from yesterday its already 108 outside and we are supposed to be going out this afternoon just like every Saturday. I have been in the process these past couple of weeks of cleaning out my old clothes. Its not that I don't' like them but I know wear a size 7 compared to my size 1&3 that I was about 2 yrs ago. So out they go ... The size 5's can stay I'm gonna try to fit back into them. I'm not fat by anymeans. I get my body fat tested regularly one of the benefits from working for the corporate office of the athletic club. And my body fat has been pretty stable but when I put on lean mass I am amazed on how much room it takes on my body. My arms get thick and so do my legs. Oh well... So yes bye bye jeans . And I still haven't heard from the boy and he didn't make it out I miss him but it's up to him to get in contact with me. Its not worth my time worrying about it. I put it out there now its his time to reply. Kinda odd since he wanted this all in the first place. But I hope all is well and until I hear anything further I'm still a taken girl. Out of respect if I was over here going through some shit and was all depressed and couldn't get back to him I wouldn't want him out and about screwing around. So that's all for now.

Sad....

My heart sank today and now I'm on the verge of tears. It started on Monday. My boy has having an swful day and was sick of everything you know one of those days.... So I meassaged him that night and the next day ... called to check up on him nothing. So today before work I'm seriously freaking out about him. So I email him get a response saying thanks... I'm going to see a doctor about getting some meds for depression. I was like on the verge of having a heartattack. Well this weekend is when he was supposed to be coming down to visit. And well he says he's not. I understand that shit is going on and stuff and if he didn't want to go out or anything that's fine. But this has been planned for a month now and I really want to see him. There is a big party we were supposed to be going to. And right now I kinda just want to be there for him and want to drive out there to see him. But I don't know if that's going to be alright with him... dammit I care too much sometimes

Emo

I hate being all emo. I was fine earlier and it started when i was reading my friends brothers blog. He's been in Italy for like 2 months now. So he went to London and was typing about world cup etc etc and I got all teary eyed. It seems that whenever I think about my vacation to London I get teary eyed because it was such an amazing experience. It sucks but its kinda a good thing I guess that I enjoyed it so much it has such an emotional impact on me. I guess I just have to go back.

Too hot!!

Its like a hundred and some degrees outside. I think I'm staying in town this weekend I wanted to go to SF to the Drop party but I don't have the funds and I don't want to get stuck there if I'm not driving. So I'll stay in my neck of the woods. My throat hurts still on one side like something is stuck in it otherwise I feel pretty good except really tired. Haven't been sleeping well lately . So I went to see Paul Oakenfold last night it was a decent show. I think the sound system kinda sucked and didn't give the music as good as an effect as it should have been. There were like 800 people in the place and its a pretty small place with the dancefloor seperated into leves which seems like a good idea but as far as capacity I think it really limits it. I was tired and it was too hot so I wanted to leave by the time he came on which was about 11:30pm and we had gotten there at about 9pm and the line was into the parking lot. Good thing all of our friends work there. But it was good. I think I need a nap and a shower though.

Today....

Is somewhat interesting... So I was teaching swim lessons and today for some reason I was absolutely freezing my poor boobies hate me. But yesterday I wore my boardshorts in the pool all day like I had the year past and this time my fuckin thighs are chaffed. So does not feel good oh well. So today my 1 o clock appt shows up unlike yesterday. And I asked her what her goals are what kinda training she has blah blah blah she's 42 so I need a lil background info. So she said she is trying to get on to survivor ... Please refrain from laughing she's dead serious. So I ask her to swim for me so I can see what she needs work on. Well she can't see further than 12" from her face so she said I have to be close to teach her stuff. Ok fine.... She swims pretty well a lil too much splashing but an easy fix. So I give her a few pointers and swim along side her. Well she has like no endurance for swimming she was like dying after 2laps. I told her it takes alot of cardio. She claimed she did cycling so I'm like "thats great I did a cycling class and almost died its very difficult" She replies " no I just sit on the bike and go... I'm too lazy to go to the class it looks too hard". So wtf am I suppose to do with this lady who has her heart on getting on to survivor?? Oh well I'll just make her swim her lil heart out til she can make it 5 times around the pool without dying. It is a 25m pool ... I have a feeling survivor may require a bit more lol....

Ok so my fortune cookie was right!!!

Good things come from eating Chinese food I swear!! The fortune cookies have given me great luck! I got two lil fortunes that said various things about success and money and guess what I broke a lil better than even in Vegas and come back to a few raises at work. WOOT!! Yes it rocked !! We had good luck in Vegas. We went to get our rental car and when we went to the place it was supposed to be parked at there was no car...so we got upgraded to a 2006 Mustang Convertable no extra charge! Woot! Then we went to the hotel and for $100 bucks got upgraded to a premium suite on the 24th floor over looking the south side of the strip with a 50ft panoramic view!! Big screen tv, couches, bar, huge tub etc etc! We walked around the strip, gambled, drank, etc etc good times! I went with my friend and her lil sis for her sis's 21st bday... ok being with two sisters sucked a bit they bickered a whole lot but I was in Vegas so I can't complain too much. Then I come back to work drag ass all day from being tired and talk to my manager about my pay raise... I'm doing about 3diff jobs with this company so my main job is Office assistant/ manager I got a $2 raise for that and a $4 raise for helping out with swim lessons. The only downside is I'm working a few split shifts from 10am-9pm but hey its money which I can deinately use. My sexy boy will be visting me soon possibly more than once and we may head out to the garlic festival together too will be great times for sure. I love garlic! That's all for now folks.