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I hate this I hate missing you. I hate feeling like I'm missing out without you around. I know it wasn't a long time betwenn us but it was great. We connected on so many levels and after so many years and finally just being able to be us alone for those few months was great. Then you turn around and end it because you are afraid. I dont' know why I can't let go of this. Maybe I should forget about you. But I can't my heart won't let me. I was asked what I missed about you. My reply was everything. The kisses, the way you held me, the way you brushed the hair out of my eyes, the way you looked at me, how we feel asleep all wrapped up, how you let me be when i fell asleep on you lap while you were watching the basketball game, how you would leave the boys on the bench to check up on me during your softball game, how you would steal kisses from me when we were bowling. How you would stick your foot in your mouth after saying something too loud at dinner and the person heard you. How you would hold my hand walking in the mall. How you let me pick out the best deals on your clothes for work. I just miss you, all of you.